Author Archives: Casavampcat

And it’s not funny getting loud when there’s no one talking around me
Trying to fight anxiety as I get older, family took a while getting to know me, Thinking I was never good but finally good at letting go.
Better off without them , nothing but unstable
I’m in this second heartbreak 💔
I don’t have to lose any to be better. Don’t give me xanny now or ever. Morning has become dawn

Make the same mistake blaming circumstances
Not drinking but can’t cook. Not needing any to get better
Lightning and strikes to my heart, broken change

Every night I close my eyes & wish I was still alive
I’ve been running from the truth chasing darkness
Trying to find words with my mind , fighting the conversation at night
I know this is gonna hurt but I gave up first

I can’t be the only one that’s living shady
Ion need a lot all I ever wanted was peace
On a cold date with soda and sober
I chain my soul to my damn pen
Find myself always crushing and crumbling

Fake smiles and a lifestyle I never wanted
Writing down names of people I trust couldn’t find my name among
I’m becoming dedicated to the vague soul of I
It’s not a fantasy but becoming reality
Thought I outgrew this part of me

But there’s gonna be somebody out there
Somebody somewhere A lost me will find me someday
I try to hold in my tears staring at the ceiling at night
If you’re anybody else, you wouldn’t probably last a day but I’m getting closer to the peak
Turing a new Age soon but still fighting the old me
I’ve been ghosting me and now I wish it was all a dream and not leaving me fazed but what’s reality without being sour and sadistic.


Raise me up into the sky until I’m short of breath
Fill me up with confidence, I say what’s in my chest
Spill my words and tear me down until there’s nothing left
Rearrange the pieces just to fit me with the rest,
Then am I the monster?

I was 6 when the world put me on a pedestal
I had big dreams of Having fun and making memories
Made some bad moves trying to act cool,
Lifting me up , And tearing me down
I’ll take responsibility for everything I’ve done
Including Ghosting you myself from me

Couldn’t stand together so we fell apart
Close to the better, magnify all my flaws
Why do I keep coming back to laws, We scared to be loving
Chaos seems daunting.
Not an optimist but a pessimist
Tell me how do we keep holding up to faith & ignore the reality of the bad sides


Can you feel it on your weak days
I wanna see the sun rise with my flaws and sins
Love me forever while we are Lust in each other everyday and 4ever
I’ll be waiting from flaws to Duns. I wanna see the sun rise when it’s just me and you looked in together for the Nights

Empty at the am
Still can’t get to pack up the silence left into crumbs
I’m scared, Cos the one thing on my mind is flawless
I’m on my way to your hearts
Hold me in your hearts when I’m gone, Be on my way till I cross
I know that we don’t speak, sorry that I fell you into chaos
I lust my sight at the drop of your mask

Still can’t see pass the places where I might have flawed
I stare at the mirror seeing a ghost feeling so self centered
Thinking I’m better but feeling under the weather
When I’m gone I’ll always be right by your side
I know that we don’t speak. My guilt is hurting

Counting to ten reminiscing over something you said
I’m afraid you’d change, I’ll get on the road
Find someone who loves you better than I Know
Feels like a love time striving to get power to love
You’re my everything but I’m not enough

My Flaws outshine my hurts burst by chaos
You remind me of everything even when I wasn’t in Love
It might have been a nightmare to anyone who I care

Do you ever feel like the sour tears drop were never drying ?
Rolling down our cheeks till our tongue gets a taste of Salt
The times we never gave up on love, The times we faced life flawlessly without when the world is chaotic.
The pains and silent night tears drop 💧
Smiles but to the World we are full of flaws
A world where chaos evolves and revolves in full revolution

We’re not perfect
But we desire perfection
We are flawed
But we seem flawless
We’re Chaotic
But people patronize peace

This is a verse without no lines breaking lines without boarders
Smiling in a cab but crying deep within
You didn’t mention the cheating from cursing out loud
After we broke up
Thought It was gonna be easy, Seeing a new guy flossing your Dm & He don’t look like a friend
Made me think life was never easy. We Chasing clouds with no season calling love a reason
My heart sank feeling like an anchor and I’m falling in

After we broke up
I told by self I was better off not thinking about you and I
And I’ll be alright kissing with someone else and smiling to late night calls spending hours on texts
Told my self I wasn’t falling for another heart
But now I’m falling
With time coming it would be I fell for another

But now we texting causally like we’ve always been Casual lovers. It’s been one sided
My heart’s got lost in the ocean and I went drowning for it

Everyday its getting closer, going faster than a rollercoaster.
Love like yours will surely come my way
We’ve become known to what we fear, the feelings fresh every time we touch, we both can play here.
Our secrets we both have to keep it being honest isn’t a game we have to play to the world but a game with two players ( U & I
Even thou the sun’s don’t align but then we align with love

This nights never seem to go to daylight
They say love is clear to see but then we aren’t blind either
Just emotional and losing my self control, you can lay with me so it doesn’t hurt

The world is same, I’m the one who’s different
Would you give me a moment, to leave no bone unbroken
Let us love like 17 and grow gray like we were never teenagers
I’m in love with Poisoning, pretty frightful gift titties to me
If the world wasn’t so cold, we could have unfreeze this moment 💙 And as the world grows old, we’ll leave no heart unbroken.

The future is staring back at us but we can’t have a glimpse
The future is facing us both with dark shades on
Dilated pupils or not we can’t tell, Blue, black or green eyes we can’t see

Can’t believe I wasted my time
Just to tell another one Good bye 🥺
You cherish all the times we cuddle and kiss all night
The world not meaning a thing to us at damn those times
We thought we were the best part of another, you changed your voice tone low and whisper that you wished you’ve known
But then it’s past the time no more & we really fought for 4ever
Now you’re wanting another chance with me
Baby Girl don’t you think I’ve been through enough, Loving you was all I knew. Never gave a damn about all those sites.
Even thou that’s how we met, M you were the first I loved.

I never did say this one’s
But I never thought I could move on from us
But look at the future now, we faced the dark sides of life even thou I loved the dark with you it felt bright at night
This verse is dedicated to you my first True love
But now I don’t caremore all I do is careless now.
The future is putting on dark shades and watching at us make the mistakes of life.
Why’d you think isn’t not present now even thou it was all past

I never meant to make you fall
But why’d I lead you on when I cannot commit
Karma is no bitch, Karma is a friend to those favoured and foe to those who got there paycheck from karma

Was it fate ? Was it meant to be this way ? Broke your little heart ?
I stopped the chat that night not cos of what you said
But the memories of the past, I never wanted being afraid of the past anymore. But I choose to face the future where it’s all dark and Darkness envelopes darkness. A win win for me
2 days felt like 2 years, The plans came shocking my nerves

Tables karma stocking
Should have known when you let me go
You were losing a part of me, 4give all my mistakes
Even thou we fell in love with no Haste, The future is not promised not any more
That’s why I live in the Moment ( WOLO)
We Only live once
We only Love once
We only leave once
We only lust once
This is the part of me Behind my verses
A threshold where if feel safe and Alive 🙂

There’s something about it , Sunset
That burning burning ball of light. A force of nature like time itself. It starts to fade and leave you wondering
I must owe all my demons, all I ask for is forgiveness


I’ve wanted to stay a child as long as I can, But adulthood won’t deliver to you black velvet cake & cappuccino all night for free
Not where I want to be yet but gracefully not where I was
The road to success is paved with Good intentions 😇

I should dance with the skeletons in my closet
Learn their names and address them properly with disguise
Asking them to leave or not
Having coffee with my Demons, my chauffeur drives them around me.
What keeps em here.
Learn what doors they keep finding Open, and kick them out

Wonder I pray
This stars I trade chasing comets, Ask me and I’ll tell
How in love I fell, flying, living, chasing
My world your world
No we don’t need the walls , Two of us can make history
I and me , Two faults mystery. Tucking to you

Learn the language of remembering and listen to the wind
Cherish your winds, yourself a medicine
Cos I keep pills and fire burning in me
Two and more a Black velvet cake with a single candle
While I make my silent wishes and in reality we are

I am starting from nothing, To create me a new better world
I love you all alone, staring at the Ocean, Coming home to better place where it’s all perfection and exquisite taste.
Feed your soul my whole devotion, Call me blonde but not a color. Call you rose but not of flowers
Darling you’re the only one that bring peace to me
Takes my breath away from me and leave me Breathing flawless

You just need to know
Black isn’t just a color, Velvet isn’t just a cake
Cos together we’re a match not from hell but from our Hearts
With our own charming angel 😇
Black is peace, Black is silence, Black is Love
Black is me and you, with the world in non-existence
I just need you to know, I give you half of
-128√e980 but in equal folds