And it’s not funny getting loud when there’s no one talking around me
Trying to fight anxiety as I get older, family took a while getting to know me, Thinking I was never good but finally good at letting go.
Better off without them , nothing but unstable
I’m in this second heartbreak 💔
I don’t have to lose any to be better. Don’t give me xanny now or ever. Morning has become dawn
Make the same mistake blaming circumstances
Not drinking but can’t cook. Not needing any to get better
Lightning and strikes to my heart, broken change
Every night I close my eyes & wish I was still alive
I’ve been running from the truth chasing darkness
Trying to find words with my mind , fighting the conversation at night
I know this is gonna hurt but I gave up first
I can’t be the only one that’s living shady
Ion need a lot all I ever wanted was peace
On a cold date with soda and sober
I chain my soul to my damn pen
Find myself always crushing and crumbling
Fake smiles and a lifestyle I never wanted
Writing down names of people I trust couldn’t find my name among
I’m becoming dedicated to the vague soul of I
It’s not a fantasy but becoming reality
Thought I outgrew this part of me
But there’s gonna be somebody out there
Somebody somewhere A lost me will find me someday
I try to hold in my tears staring at the ceiling at night
If you’re anybody else, you wouldn’t probably last a day but I’m getting closer to the peak
Turing a new Age soon but still fighting the old me
I’ve been ghosting me and now I wish it was all a dream and not leaving me fazed but what’s reality without being sour and sadistic.
Raise me up into the sky until I’m short of breath
Fill me up with confidence, I say what’s in my chest
Spill my words and tear me down until there’s nothing left
Rearrange the pieces just to fit me with the rest,
Then am I the monster?
I was 6 when the world put me on a pedestal
I had big dreams of Having fun and making memories
Made some bad moves trying to act cool,
Lifting me up , And tearing me down
I’ll take responsibility for everything I’ve done
Including Ghosting you myself from me
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